the world is soooo small

read from an ex-colleague archive blog and found out that she's actually a fren of my 3 month old fren - a happy going guy who had committed suicide. This happen 4 years ago. Knew him when I first joined the master part time class. and it's merely 3 months. All of us was shock and super shock on why..... This is like asking why all the time but no one will ever know the answer eventually. Love this sayings of Forest Gump "Life's like a box of chocolate, you'll never know what you gets" Chocolates can be bitter and can be sweet. But you can only know once you experience it with your taste bud. That's the reason we shouldn't afraid of experience them and I'm sure one day you will get the "sweets" of life. If we let ourselve to take a step further, at least there's a chance even it's a minimal one, but If we forbid ourselves at the first place, you gain nothing. Life's precious, live it up!!!

Dilemma ...as usual!!

I know i had been missing for the whole month. If you think I'm busy with work, I'm not. Not working for the past whole month and not even a single penny dropping into the pocket. Have been so frustated. If it's not becoz of it's a temporary jobs I wouldn't have accept it. After all this years, I still can't convince myself to do commercials as my living. I don't like the way the Agency's control all, telling you what to do by the fact that they don't know what should be done. Still prefer to be doing TV programmes or documentary where I can learn the cultures and lifes of the people around me. I find myself always in a thirst for various kind of knowledge. Don't know whether this is good or not for me as some will say I'm not focus. Don't know why, it's just I'll be curious over anything that I doesn't know and hope that I can know it in deep. But sometimes when I sit down and think, should I continue to be like that or should I just pick something up and focus in it? Now I'm in dilemma, should I do Commercials for the sake of the money or should I go back to TV for the sake of satisfaction?

Dilemma

"Dear, I am going to XX, just let you know that I have called XXX to ask him to give you a chance for prod work. I think he iwll consider my recommend, anyway i am not sure he is ok or not, but i hope you have a job. keep in touch"

when i saw this sms displayed on the phone, my heart ache. I feel so touching and unexpected that someone whom i thought had always been neglecting my feelings and don't remember my words actually done something to help me....i was totally speechless at that time and tears just fell down uncontrollably. In a way, I never thought to ask him to help, as i just feel that i should get the job by my own means and not through others help. I was always in dilemma when i comes to this situation. I wanted the job, but I doesn't wish that I got the job because of someone's recommendation. If I got the job, I'll be feeling like I am "using" a fren to help me get a job,"using" his "good relationship" with others. I wish that I got it because of my own capability. Maybe someone will says, c'est la vie, we need recommendations in order to reach our goals. But it just can't convince me. Any comments?

New House for my Bao Bei

transporting through my ATOZ ..... look at him, scary scary man.....

reach destination ===> new house

walk into the house compound....but oops retreat again....Bao Bei:"whose house is this??? RUN!!"

Finally , in the house......wanted to rush into my house now!!!

bye bye....look after the house, Bao Bei

What breed of Dog are You?

You're a Bernese Mountain Dog!

No bones about it, you're a good-hearted, people-loving Bernese Mountain Dog. Down-to-earth and loyal, no one works or plays harder than you do. You put your nose to the grindstone when it really counts, but you never neglect your social calendar. Simultaneously strong and sweet, you're very tuned-in to the feelings and needs of the other dogs you run with. Without having to be asked, you always have a helping paw to lend and a sympathetic shoulder to lean on. "Communication" is your middle name, and when that's paired with your unswerving devotion, you get a breed that everyone respects and trusts. Woof!


What Breed of Dog Are You?

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End of holiday

Finally, RESIGN today!!

After 2 1/2 month of "working" in the company, I finally quitted. Why do I quote the working word? Coz this 2 1/2 month is really and merely a work of nothing to me. I have totally no interest in the job and every morning going to work , i just can't kept thinking to quit. Maybe my decision is wrong at the first place, I shouldn't have the thought that I will like / be in love with commercial although I thought maybe when I first graduate I don't got the chance to understand it better. But now I know what I want. Being in the commercial line is totally a no-satisfaction job at all. You won't feel content and actually feel nothing after you have completed a job. I can see it's more like a daily routine to me if I continue to be in it. Wherelse in TV line, it's totally another story. Although the money is not that good in TV, but the feel of contentment is pretty good. You can learn life of people and even life philosophy from the people involved in making the programme a sucess. and after that, you can really see the result of your hardwork. Hopefully, I do not make the wrong choice this time!!

Two Vision ?

Found this interesting from Kea's blog. Reminds me of always seeing things in both view -- optimistic vs. Pessimistic

Dogs fighting !! wah cha ~~~ Just playing only.....

A Big Smile =) I win!!!

Never listen to Insurance company!!!!

I made a medical claim with Hong Leong Insurance last year (company insurance). At first they handed me a form and ask me to visit the doctor to get the medical report and I was charged RM 50 for that. After dragging for 6 months, I got my check, and the amount is less RM50 . And the explanation I got is medical report non-claimable. Now who asked me to get the report at the first place, and who made me pay RM 50 for nothing? Damn PISS OFF now............

意志消沉

...meaning my enthusiasm in this industry is getting lower and lower.....

haven't been getting news from my "shed of light" after more than a week now.....had been asking what's the status and I get no reply...... getting more and more boring and low energy.....

Unleashed your CREATIVITY

Found this "Electrical Goods" man in Jusco, 1 Utama yesterday

See how creative they are to stack up with all the electrical goods, even the hair is made up of pots handle...... Good Job to whoever did this.....

My Johari Window

Came across this unique little window that helps one to learn more about ourself. Anyone mind to let me know myself better? thanks a lot ....muakss.....

boring shoot

Having a Japanese client over here for a car commercial shoot....
this is the most boring shoot that i had ever involved in, been ask to be a wardrobe coordinator which there's nothing much to do.....
All i can see only nice car and beautiful Jap celeb, Noriko ....so sorry forgot to take her big CU

to secure or not to....

Have you ever been working until every morning you just wanted to think of some way to avoid yourself getting to work?
This is what I had been through for the past 1 and a half month....After working for all these years, this is the first time i'm having this feeling. I feel myself like working just for the sake of money now and totally not for the sake of any interest at all, be it for my future career or my interest in the job.....wanted to let go of this just like that, but i'm too timid to do it without anything in mind what's the next move....i admit i'm the one people that need security in life....tried very hard to convince myself that i got nothing to lose but I just can't.....can't really imagine what will happen when later on in my life i have more commitment in life, i believe my need of "security" will be much more stronger....any suggestion on how I should deal with this?

Shed of light

I found a shed of light in my life .....that feeling is really like a hand dragging you out from a a dark room where you can't even see anything.....will tell you what if everything's successful... =)

18:30 19 Feb 2006

This is the time my companion for 10 years leaves us. My old dog, Lucky passed away struggling yesterday evening. Was so sad and cry out ... His two sons seems like really know what's is happening and had been so quiet and good after that.



Good bye Lucky .....

One more leaving their bachelorhood!!

On the recent Valentine day. my best friend got herself registered! That means I'm loosing one more friend in my circle of singlehood friends. Looks like the circle is getting smaller and smaller. Congratulations to those who are married and you got my fullest blessings .....

Are you married?

Or are you getting married soon?

This 2 question had been asked by my frens (and I mean not only one) around me whenever we meet. This includes frens who hadn't been keeping in touch and the first question that is asked when we meet. Why? I had been wondering why am I been throw on this question so often? Do I look like someone who will get married so fast? or I behave like marriage is everything to me? Well. to all of u out there, I am not like what you thought. I am a very career minded girl. To me, career rank the first, especially for a woman. That is the most important 'insurance' for a woman's life. And I'm not that kind of person to be happy with a wonderful marriage life. I'm not saying that marriage is not good. It's just that to me, even after marriage, I also need to have my own career life rather than putting all the hope of my life on my future husband. Every one have to be responsible for their own life and not depending on others to decide your life right? I am starting to feel more and more like a female chauvinist...=)

Life goes on...

After a week of holiday, I guess the whole Malaysia is back to work again today.....Had been visiting frens, eating here and there and tummy is already out....:( Every year this time I think all of us, especially the girls won't stop eating their favourite dishes and tidbits....To me, I don't care as long as I can eat what I like and do what I like....Even if I'm not eating that much of food, I will get the tummy also since I was 'force' to seat in front of the computer all the time....So why care more? Enjoy first...Ha

This new year is quite boring for me. At this age, most of the frens are either getting married or already married. Usually, CNY is the time we meet up with old frens, but since the married had gone back home, and the to-be married are busy preparing. So, believe it or not, I only meet up with two of my frens only for the week holiday. This NY let me realize that my frens are really too little, looking at others, they can meet up with different frens everyday. Am I that hard to get along with? Am I a 'good' fren? Am I a redundant when I am going out with my fren? These question always comes up to my mind... I guess this year resolution is to really sit down and think who am I....

HAPPY CNY

Time flies, still remember last year CNY in HK, in their 'flower market' and now it's another year already. This new year is a bit boring, but have been busy for the NY eve and first day of CNY. This is what I am busy with



Of course I am not the 'chef' here, just a helper in cleaning the veges hehehe....This is a new era, who says girls must know how to cook. Let the guys share the burden too, rite?

Visited this temple far away in Banting, it's almost 1 1/2 hour drive with my new car. How tired it is, if it's not because of driving my mom there, I wouldn't go for the 2nd time.



My wishes for this: "May everyone have a prosperous New Year" and that includes me too!!!